To start today
Do something creative (to write, to draw, to paint, to compose, to take pictures, to retouch, to design) at least half an hour per day, before start to make something passive (to play, to watch, to read).
List of pending projects
– improve myself as a parent
– to become a better person
– books: four sci-fi novellas or a sci-fi novel, one medieval
– two or three songs
– learn to draw
– start to paint again
– I need a logo
– design me accessories for photography
– make exercise (no sport)
– to meditate
– to improve my English, to recover my few knowledge of German and French, to learn Japanese
Und so weiter…
I would like to be a blackbird to be able to sing my feelings.
Gods made it black because they though unfair to let it have colour in its feathers too, but the sound that flows from its beak fights the black and puts a point of colour in the eyes of those who hear it song.
Every smile, every joke, every “look of complicity” (automatic translator alert), each one of those things we shared, we share and we will share it’s a way to tell I love you. I will not be able to tell it to you, because it seems some sort of social mistake. I will not be able to tell it to you because maybe you are a guy, and we guys don’t tell us those things. I will not be able to tell it to you because you are a girl, and it will seem I’m looking for more. I will not be able to tell it to you because I don’t speak your language very well, and I can be wrong.
Today a friend has left us.
And as it happen with my father, I’ve not been able to tell her I love her. And I want not to repeat it. Then, if sometime I smiled at you, I joked with you, or anyone of those things you know I made because I like you, I did it because I loved you. Because I love you. Because I wish I will be able to love you forever, although we can discuss, or never see us, or stop talking us.